There's Always Something

There's always something to want (or need, depending on your perspective). I suppose that is one reason I have this blog. To write about the wants and needs and just sort of get it out of my system so I wouldn't think about it too much. And also just to post pretty things I like I guess.
When I gave the curious loved ones ideas of what I could use for Christmas, I was done at that time. I had just gone major shopping recently and got a few new tops, pants, and even a rug for my living room. So at that time I felt like there really wasn't much that I needed or even wanted. So I came up with a few things I liked, a few affordable little things. Lip gloss, gel blush, a necklace (under $30), oh I don't know.

But now that winter is here, I keep thinking of stuff I should have asked for instead. Some of those warm essentials that I posted a few posts ago. Some warmer skirts, woolly socks, cashmere, a new coat. I just keep thinking of things. It's terrible and I hate that I am so materialistic. I wasn't always this way. I think part of it is that I really can't buy things unless we need them. And even then we can't afford some things. I mentioned that my puffy jacket is no longer puffy and warm because it was low quality to begin with. But I really don't think we could afford to get me a new puffy down jacket. If it's beyond the basic food and shelter and car maintenance, we really cannot justify it.
Another part of my problem is that I have too much time on my hands. Time to care about fashion and cute things. I am done with school and I finished the internship I was doing and I'm in that awkward in between stage where I don't feel like I can get a job and then immediately ask for ten days off at Christmas time (we are spending a long time at my in-laws this year).

Anyway, that has sort of been on my mind for a while. Especially at this time of year when I am reminded of my faith and the real things that I believe in at Christmas time. I know I have been given and blessed with so much. I know we are lucky to have enough for our needs. We are lucky that my husband does have a good job and that he is able to work during law school. I am grateful that we are even able to travel to see our families at Christmas this year. Heck, I am just grateful that we have happy family relationships.