There's Always Something

There's always something to want (or need, depending on your perspective). I suppose that is one reason I have this blog. To write about the wants and needs and just sort of get it out of my system so I wouldn't think about it too much. And also just to post pretty things I like I guess.
When I gave the curious loved ones ideas of what I could use for Christmas, I was done at that time. I had just gone major shopping recently and got a few new tops, pants, and even a rug for my living room. So at that time I felt like there really wasn't much that I needed or even wanted. So I came up with a few things I liked, a few affordable little things. Lip gloss, gel blush, a necklace (under $30), oh I don't know.

But now that winter is here, I keep thinking of stuff I should have asked for instead. Some of those warm essentials that I posted a few posts ago. Some warmer skirts, woolly socks, cashmere, a new coat. I just keep thinking of things. It's terrible and I hate that I am so materialistic. I wasn't always this way. I think part of it is that I really can't buy things unless we need them. And even then we can't afford some things. I mentioned that my puffy jacket is no longer puffy and warm because it was low quality to begin with. But I really don't think we could afford to get me a new puffy down jacket. If it's beyond the basic food and shelter and car maintenance, we really cannot justify it.
Another part of my problem is that I have too much time on my hands. Time to care about fashion and cute things. I am done with school and I finished the internship I was doing and I'm in that awkward in between stage where I don't feel like I can get a job and then immediately ask for ten days off at Christmas time (we are spending a long time at my in-laws this year).

Anyway, that has sort of been on my mind for a while. Especially at this time of year when I am reminded of my faith and the real things that I believe in at Christmas time. I know I have been given and blessed with so much. I know we are lucky to have enough for our needs. We are lucky that my husband does have a good job and that he is able to work during law school. I am grateful that we are even able to travel to see our families at Christmas this year. Heck, I am just grateful that we have happy family relationships.

I'm Reaching a Point

I have begun dreaming about hanging out with people. Like, not day-dreaming/wishful thinking. My subconscious, when I sleep - I am having dreams about socializing with people. One night, Michael Phelps was there, believe it or not. And yes, he was fully clothed. Another time, I dreamed I was hanging out with some people from my high school, whom I really haven't spoken to in ages.
I am a widow to my husband's law program. Did I mention this already? Hmmm... Well, he works during the day and goes to school at night. So I am bored and lonely. Anytime I get a chance to hang out with him, I talk his ear off. I cannot stop chatting. I just go most days without saying much to anyone.
Today I spent some time with a few girls and was surprised by how much I talked, especially for having met one girl once, one girl twice, and the other never before.

Visual

I love seeing things visually. This year for Christmas, I decided to organize the things I want/need in a sort of collage. I had so much fun doing it that I decided to make one for my husband too. His parents always ask what we want for Christmas and we never really know what to tell them. So this time, I am prepared. Immature, I suppose. But we probably won't end up asking for all of these things. It is just so fun to look at!

Here's mine.

Here's his. Honestly, I kind of wish all my loved ones would do this for me!